All of us grow to our passions individually. Some are intensely aware, even as young children, of what they want to do and how they are going to achieve it. Others, not so much. Recently, I've considered that I am one of those who, almost defiantly, refuses to read directions (I have no problem asking for them, that is a different topic!). As if when I was born my young self thought, 'I've totally got this' and tossed aside my instructions. It's all about the journey, right?
To be perfectly honest, I kind of wish this journey had been shorter and maybe not involved quite so much difficulty, but I can say without equivocation: 'I am glad to be here'.
Many of you know me through social media and on-line interaction, I hope you continue to be a part of my life as I begin my career as an author. Many author bios quip something about how they always have written or dreamed of writing. I fall directly into that category. I wrote as a young child (I recently discovered a few of those stories, *dies of embarrassment*), in college I fell in love with poetry, writing and and reading a lot. Everyone in my crazy mixed up family is an artist. Except me. Somewhere along the way, I let people who were important to me tell me I wasn't good enough. Not in so many words but it was there. When I began to believe it myself, I let my writing go.
in 2011 I read my first m/m romance novel, Suzanne Brockman's 'Force of Nature'. This book changed my life. Suzanne Brockman changed my life. Through her writing, I realized I was in a place in my life I never expected or wanted to be (see, instructions would have been handy). Through her, I discovered an entire genre that I fell in love with.
Why I am drawn to m/m romance is something I have asked myself many times. I don't identify as LGBT or even Q. Mostly I identify as myself (with no instructions). A lot of thought has brought me to this conclusion (hot men aside); it is the equality of the relationships that draws me. There is (usually) no bull*hit about gender roles; whose 'job' it is to do the dishes, whose job is more important, whose responsibility children are, has nothing to do with genetics. I mean, yes, that exists and certainly not all gay men are nice guys who will take out the trash without being asked, not all lesbians are nurturing parents, but GENDER is removed from this. It is just two people in a relationship.
As I write this I am putting the finishing touches on my first novel, an m/m romantic suspense set in the Pacific Northwest. Wish me luck.